As I clear out the farm I’m going back and forth on what to do with it, or more specifically when. Do I sell up and buy something more suitable like an city apartment? Do I hang onto it as it is for a while and gamble that the village becomes a super fashionable hangout for rich wankers? Do I sink a couple of years into doing up into an eco cabin retreat and then sell?

It would be nice if I could see a clear path, both metaphorically and physically. Am I keen to get rid of it quickly because of memories and the amount of work? I do have a fear that if I don’t get rid of it as soon as I can I will still be there in 10 years time with a whipper snipper permanently grafted to my arm.

Maybe ten years ago I had the energy to make something special out of it. Maybe if my health is suddenly improved by next year. Maybe if the kids weren’t such city mice… maybe… maybe… maybe.