When I went through a serious bout of PSTD induced insomnia a few years ago I was pretty much ready to check out a few times. But with a lot of work and a very strict sleep routine I managed to reset myself and get back to a more or less normal sleep schedule. Which has helped my health both mental and physical.

However—I have now become so fixated on maintaining the same routine that helped my insomnia that I have been unable to listen to anything other than the same three audiobooks. I no longer read before bed or listen to podcasts for fear of interrupting the all important schedule. It hasn’t helped that the few times I have varied things with a late night or an evening event I have struggled for the next few days.

I’m hoping that I can break the routine at some point without breaking my sleep again. I don’t think my brain can handle the atrophy much longer that is happening with the lack of stimulation. I’m hanging an awful lot of hope on the farm regulating my sleep while allowing me to return to the creative life that kept my mind occupied.