It’s not having lots to do that’s exhausting me, it’s the constantly thinking about the things I have to do that really interferes with my life. I’m not great at just being in the moment and leaving stuff at work, and I really want to be. I’m either worrying about it or doing it, and when it’s done I just instantly start all over again.

Sincerely Congrat-u-bloody-lations to those that can either switch it off, or compartmentalize jobs, study, obligations etc. but that isn’t me. If there are things that need to be done I’m going to have that going on in my head, even if there is not chance it’s happening today. If I have a job to do tomorrow, it is definitely going to be in my head all night, quite possibly ruining my sleep and making getting anything done the next day more difficult.

I would give real world money to make it not the case. But I suspect unless I can ditch the Sisyphus boulder thing I’m heading for a Wile E Coyote boulder thing.