I find it difficult to be in the same room as my mother for more than 15mins before arguments start. I should probably mention my mother finds herself constantly surrounded by people who can’t be around her without starting an argument. She’s very unlucky like that, I guess she just attracts argumentative people?

So why is she Ghost Rider? It’s the penance stare, that special ability to make someone experience are the pain and suffering they have caused others. Except with my mother it’s me seeing her still showing objectionable behaviors that she taught me, and that it’s taken me years to expel from myself.

Spending time with her is exactly like spending time with 20 year old me, and I hated that guy then, and now I’m ashamed to have been him. It’s not my job to change her, and honestly if she was capable of being a better person she probably shouldn’t have left it so long.