Tag: fatigue

  • Daze…

    I honestly thought it was Friday today (it’s Tuesday), the constantly juggling everything singlehanded doesn’t require knowing what day it is apparently. Dates matter, the days they fall on not so much. My calendar is filled with little markers on the numbers, I rarely even notice if it has a little F or W above…

  • The Gall…

    Todays round of Doctors poking me, draining me has pointed the towards “maybe a gallbladder problem”, so I’ll be getting up at 5am to go get a dose of radioactive isotopes, and scanned around the middle. It’s nice that they are all taking an interest, but it would be nice if they could either fix…

  • Where’s My Off Switch?

    It’s not having lots to do that’s exhausting me, it’s the constantly thinking about the things I have to do that really interferes with my life. I’m not great at just being in the moment and leaving stuff at work, and I really want to be. I’m either worrying about it or doing it, and…

  • Permission to Fall Down Sir?

    Up at 5am to drive a couple of hours for a doctors appointment, and people ask me why I’m not going to retire to a rural town, but I digress. My appointment this morning is for test results, because I’m incapable of just admitting that I’m falling apart without an official letter stamped in triplicate…

  • I Get Knocked Down, But…

    [record scratch, followed by silence]. Sorry Chumbawamba I’m not felling particularly resilient at the moment so I’m staying down. I don’t know if it’s exhaustion, illness, depression, or good old fashioned per Christmas angst with a dollop of grief, but I’m not up to pushing through it whatever it is. Maybe it’s all of them?…

  • I Hate the Spoon Theory…

    The spoon theory if you don’t know is popular when explaining how chronic illness etc limits what you can do, usually to people who say things like “you don’t look sick”. Spoon theory explains what it’s like to live with a fatiguing chronic illness. You start the day with a set amount of ability to…