Tag: journal
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There are Two Paths…
Except one is a sticky mudslide. Actually both were sticky mudslides because groundwork, constant rain, short days, and subzero temperatures are not great for making ground you can walk on let alone drive on. Which would not be an issue if I didn’t need to be able to use the shipping containers until spring. I…
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Nah, I’m Good…
Occasionally I get asked out, no really I do. Sometimes I even go, have a coffee, and a chat but not too often because I know how busy I am at the moment so it’s not really something that seems fair to the other person. The other problem is that I am not just comfortable…
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Ranking My Top 5 Regrets…
Wouldn’t that be a depressing way to spend your birthday? What I did instead was have a bit of lie in until the cat decided his breakfast was late. Then I had breakfast at the village markets with my ex-wife who gave me a lift out to collect my car from the farm and she…
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Like a Bird on a Wire…
Working at the farm is frosty hands and muddy boots and very solitary this month. Which is understandable because if I had a choice I wouldn’t move from the couch till spring. Maybe next winter that will be an option for me. I am in clearing paths mode this month, mainly clearing a path through…
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Time takes a cigarette…
I was really making some progress three years ago. I was just out of short and poorly thought out relationship, I was on a serious organization kick, and I was on a self managed therapy program. Two years ago I was still grieving the loss of my father, desperately trying to come to terms with…
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I Still Care…
When I tick the carer box on just about every form I fill out these days I still feel like it’s not a real thing. 20+ years of primary care for two ASD children, plus an ex who is definitely on the spectrum but I still feel like I would be judged to be more…
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The Thin Black and White Duke…
About 6 weeks ago a cat followed my eldest home from Taco Bell. A strange choice for a cat to make as my eldest is nervous around animals and taco bell is not a great option for cats, or for people to be honest. For the next few days the cat stuck around the backyard,…
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Lab Work…
It’s been a long week, and one of those especially difficult ones where I am forced to keep the fixed grin of functioning on. I was doing pretty well until about lunchtime when the wheels came off completely. Nothing dramatic just the proverbial straw on a camel thing. To be honest it wasn’t going to…
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Stop the Ride…
I’m having a hell of time focusing on things at the moment. Things are getting done, in a haphazard fashion, but it’s mostly the essentials and often even those are behind schedule. One of the kids had a shower and there weren’t any clean towels. I kind of feel things like that fall into the…
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My Only Real Job…
Another day of dealing with the seemingly never ending paperwork for my father’s estate. The court needs an occupation to put on my forms, because bureaucracy loves a label, so I just put carer because it’s simpler than trying to summarize the litany of various side hustles and small businesses I’ve shoehorned around the rest…
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