Tag: life

  • Shhhh…

    Let’s not tip the year off that it’s almost over, because we don’t want to give it chance to do something else horrible before midnight. I’d like to think next year will be better, but it’s been on a fairly horrid downhill trajectory since at least 2016. I’m not saying that David Bowie dying somehow…

  • Head Cleaner…

    There’s nothing quite like a 600km round trip with half a dozen Ministry of Sound dance albums to clear your head. Even more so on winding roads in a car with a hair trigger for an accelerator. Driving seems to occupy just enough of the cognitive functions of my brain to allow me to think,…

  • F.I.N.E…

    I am, and then I’m not. Every time I go to farm I’m convinced I’m getting better, and it’s no too bad this time… then a few hours later I’m a drained mess trying to avoid closing my eyes because of the flashbacks. Maybe I stood in the wrong room too long? Maybe it’s the…

  • If…

    If you ever find someone who you can happily sit in silence with… If you ever find someone who offers to make you a coffee, while they are getting one for themselves… If you ever find someone who has the same favorite episode of whatever show it is you both like… If you ever find…

  • The Year of the Rabbit you say?

    I’m not going to fall into the trap of saying anything positive about next year. It feels like we have been trying that since 2015 and the descent just speeds up. I’m going into things with some super low expectations, if we can just avoid a thermonuclear war and mutant plagues long enough to get…

  • Checking the Bathwater for Babies…

    I’m pumping the breaks on selling the farm straight away. Six months is time to calm down and think, there is also every possibility that the paperwork is still months away. Which would pretty much be mid autumn, heading into winter, which is the exact opposite of when the farm looks the best. Also I…

  • So This is Christmas…

    Just checking in to let you know I did okay today. Possibly because I tried to be pretty damn gentle on myself, and mostly succeeded. It helped that the kids gifts went over well, the food was plentiful, and expectations were if not low they were at least realistic. The company of my ex-wife also…

  • All About Eve…

    I’m having a slow day today. A bit of a house tidy up, and a good forensic scrub of the kitchen in preparation for Christmas meal preparation. It’s been a few years since I attempted a traditional Christmas, even pre pandemic I wasn’t great at it. So this year I’m taking a small run at…

  • Maybe…

    As I clear out the farm I’m going back and forth on what to do with it, or more specifically when. Do I sell up and buy something more suitable like an city apartment? Do I hang onto it as it is for a while and gamble that the village becomes a super fashionable hangout…

  • Might Just Lie Down (again)…

    Anyone else starting to feel a bit worn out by things? No? Just me then. Maybe I took the whole last couple of years to personally, that whole pandemic, crap health, poor choices, dying relatives thing has slightly dampened my enthusiasm for life, and the impending Christmas shenanigans in less than a week aren’t helping.…