Since you looked at me
Threw your arms in the air and said, “You’re crazy”.

Also it’s been one week since my last prozac tablet, or to be precise my last 1/8th of a tablet. After a couple of months of tapering I can assume it’s pretty much out of my system now. And do I feel better? Short answer NO. Luckily I didn’t expect to feel better, I just wanted to one less medication. The prozac definitely did it’s job and kept my head out of the oven, and made it possible to cope with things that I wasn’t coping with. But I was still depressed and anxious on meds, dosages and types just gave me side effects, and a slight numbness that killed my creativity, and enabled me to soften the worst of the bad days.

I’ve given up trying to “get better”, I’m not wired for that. But I have gotten to the stage that I’d rather be naturally a mess, than chemically smoothed but still a mess. If I can’t be happy at least I can be creative and clear headed about it.

My head hurts and I feel like crap, but I’m determined to embrace my broken parts and faulty wiring.