Category: journal
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It’s Been One Week…
Since you looked at meThrew your arms in the air and said, “You’re crazy”. Also it’s been one week since my last prozac tablet, or to be precise my last 1/8th of a tablet. After a couple of months of tapering I can assume it’s pretty much out of my system now. And do I…
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Lab Work…
It’s been a long week, and one of those especially difficult ones where I am forced to keep the fixed grin of functioning on. I was doing pretty well until about lunchtime when the wheels came off completely. Nothing dramatic just the proverbial straw on a camel thing. To be honest it wasn’t going to…
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How Long Do You Need?
About a year apparently, or that is how long it took to go from maximalist bordering on hoarding to a not quite minimalist, but definitely under control regular amount of stuff type person. After a few years of chronic illness, and several more of untreated clinical depression the world decided to have a pandemic. What…
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Mountains or Icebergs…
Just when you think you’re getting over things something happens that makes you realize you definitely have some work to do. I text with my ex-wife on semi regular basis, we share two kids and years of experiences so that’s kind of understandable. Normally it can go days in between responses, from both of us…
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Holes…
It’s been a hard day, which is why I’ve been in super distract myself mode. In the past I’ve never met a problem I couldn’t joke/spend/eat etc my way through. But I seem to have lost that ability, my dark humour that used to get me through things isn’t really working anymore, in fact I’ve…
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Anecdotally of Course…
I’m not the man I used to be, and I don’t have any science to prove it. One year ago I caught covid, and it knocked me on my butt. It took me months to shake the fatigue, brain fog parts, which might be why it took so long to notice the other changes. I’ve…
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Underneath…
I’m looking at old photos of the farm, trying to locate where things where originally, and where they still might be under all the trees etc. It’s also a lot easier to get a mental map of where to put things looking at pictures of the empty space. There are definitely areas that need to…
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Not my First Rodeo…
Every year my father didn’t attend the local annual rodeo. Even though it was 500m down the road from the farm, and pretty much the only event on the village calendar. I feel like I should continue this fine family tradition by also not attending not attending this weekend.
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Standby Mode…
Do you ever just shut down for a bit? Sometimes when I’m just not up to dealing with things I just pull up the blinds to shield those around me from what’s going on inside. Today was a shut down day. I took a book and my iPad and went to bed. I didn’t end…
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Hearts…
Unlucky in love? Nah, It’s more like cursed for all eternity by opening a tomb protected by ancient incantations and blood sacrifices. It’s like a black cat crossed my path as I was walking under a ladder smashing mirrors and spilling salt everywhere. I seem to have an uncanny ability to meet people that bring…
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