Category: journal

  • Underneath…

    I’m looking at old photos of the farm, trying to locate where things where originally, and where they still might be under all the trees etc. It’s also a lot easier to get a mental map of where to put things looking at pictures of the empty space. There are definitely areas that need to…

  • Not my First Rodeo…

    Every year my father didn’t attend the local annual rodeo. Even though it was 500m down the road from the farm, and pretty much the only event on the village calendar. I feel like I should continue this fine family tradition by also not attending not attending this weekend.

  • Standby Mode…

    Do you ever just shut down for a bit? Sometimes when I’m just not up to dealing with things I just pull up the blinds to shield those around me from what’s going on inside. Today was a shut down day. I took a book and my iPad and went to bed. I didn’t end…

  • Hearts…

    Unlucky in love? Nah, It’s more like cursed for all eternity by opening a tomb protected by ancient incantations and blood sacrifices. It’s like a black cat crossed my path as I was walking under a ladder smashing mirrors and spilling salt everywhere. I seem to have an uncanny ability to meet people that bring…

  • Just for the Record…

    I was looking for a particular record to play this morning. 45 minutes later I wasn’t in the mood to listen to it. My record collection has become a collection, it serves no purpose other that taking up space. There is perhaps 200 records I play, of those maybe 50-80 I play regularly, and of…

  • Not So Fast…

    I won’t be making any decisions about 2023 until I have taken it for a good long test drive. I’m going to be using the full 100 day love it or return it free offer. I’ve been burned before so I’m keeping the receipt. If anyone needs me I’ll be out the back with 2022…

  • Shhhh…

    Let’s not tip the year off that it’s almost over, because we don’t want to give it chance to do something else horrible before midnight. I’d like to think next year will be better, but it’s been on a fairly horrid downhill trajectory since at least 2016. I’m not saying that David Bowie dying somehow…

  • Head Cleaner…

    There’s nothing quite like a 600km round trip with half a dozen Ministry of Sound dance albums to clear your head. Even more so on winding roads in a car with a hair trigger for an accelerator. Driving seems to occupy just enough of the cognitive functions of my brain to allow me to think,…

  • F.I.N.E…

    I am, and then I’m not. Every time I go to farm I’m convinced I’m getting better, and it’s no too bad this time… then a few hours later I’m a drained mess trying to avoid closing my eyes because of the flashbacks. Maybe I stood in the wrong room too long? Maybe it’s the…

  • The Year of the Rabbit you say?

    I’m not going to fall into the trap of saying anything positive about next year. It feels like we have been trying that since 2015 and the descent just speeds up. I’m going into things with some super low expectations, if we can just avoid a thermonuclear war and mutant plagues long enough to get…